I can not breathe, I am suffocating
No one cares that I am jaded
Life is just weight on my shoulders
At the end of the day I pull out our pictures
the ones hidden beneath my pillow
The edges are frayed
even though there is a smile on my face
does not mean I am happy
Even though I love you does not mean forever
I have but one question for you
When you hold my hand, do you really want to hold me
or hold me back?
You tell me I am not trying
You say I am stronger than this
I promised you that I would not fall
But I am descending as fast as gravity will take me
Baby, I am screaming on the inside
You can not hear me or you are just ignoring the fact
that I am still falling
I can not get a grip
of this voice inside my head
telling me to let it go
It has to get worse before it gets better
but no one ever said when life would be easier
No one ever cared to wipe my tears away
No one wanted to be my shoulder
No one cared to hear what I had to say
No guardian angels to watch over me
No one ever stood beside me
To help me fight this war of mine
No one cared to piece it all back together
I do not think I have ever had anyone
Truly there for me
So if you really want to love me
If you want to wake up every morning at my side
If you want to hold me and wipe my tears when I cry
If you want forever
You will have to try harder
You will have to be stronger
You will have to catch me
Because I will fall until that time comes